because it came to me.

As time passes, I begin to realize how much I've changed. every waking moment I change more and more - and it's all for the better. I'm pretty proud of myself for choosing the correct path, not counting on anyone but myself, and having my faith as my number one priority.
My Mom always told me, ever since I was little girl, not to trust anyone but myself and her. I never payed attention - which lead me to getting extremely hurt.
No one is your best friend - I think everyone should be aware of that. I've gone to and fro on the quest for one but it just DOESN'T happen. your best friend is yourself, and God himself. believe it or not, the man is always there for you. when you're in your room by yourself, crying your eyes out because what one person's words can do to you - think of him. speak to him. in all sincerity, even if it doesn't seem like it, He will respond. and he will do it in a positive way because he doesn't want you sad. He wants all his children happy.
At first I was a bit iffy about my religion - I didn't know what to believe in. I was confused and all I wanted was someone to tell me what's really going on.
No one can do that for you though. but you know what? in all that mess, I realized something - I was getting close to him. in all that research and curiosity I grew such love for him, and now all I think about is him. all I can do is wonder what it's like to be with him. he's saved me from myself and I thank him so much every day.
as much as I don't show it, in the back of my head he's always there. I always think of things, always wonder.
I was in a clinical state of depression (not really...but I put it that way because it was pretty bad) for a long time, and that was pretty recent, I guess you could say. I didn't have anyone - anyone but my Mother herself. but with all the problems everyone is facing I didn't want to dump it all on her. so I stayed to myself, which consisted of weeping myself to sleep and feeling like I didn't even belong here.
that is, until I realized there's one person who was always there for me. I followed him, read his word, and as time progressed, I noticed that I was backing away from all that was evil and focusing on the positivity.
and you know what? Now I'm extremely happy for that - sure, not many people talk to me as much as before. But I don't care. I really don't. because I'm starting to realize that those who have always been there for me, God included, will never leave my side. and that's all I need - a small amount of people that'll never leave my side. because in the end, the only people you need are God and Yourself.
and in my case, Mom included.
Goodnight xoxo